The first day of the rest of my life

Today is spectacular! Today is momentous! Today is the first day of the rest of my life!

Well, sort of.bird flying

I took a big leap and left my job to start a new chapter in my life. I am starting my own business.

That’s right. I left a job where I have worked for more than four and a half years, seven years all together. I’m trading my cubicle for my couch, my work clothes for my pajamas (or at least more comfortable clothes) and can make my own hours.

I’m freefalling, a little. Or maybe the best way to describe it might be a well-planned bungee jump.

I have written my business plan. I have planned, considered, discussed with my husband, planned, planned, and planned some more.

Of course it’s a risk. Of course I have moments where the nerves kick in. Nerves are good.

I have wanted to do this for years, and this is the first time that life and me, didn’t get in the way.

I could fail, I’m taking a chance at failure.And that’s okay.

I would rather take a chance and enjoy the ride. The bumpy, twisty, turn-filled ride, and deal with the failure.

But I don’t think I will fail.

People, not surprisingly, think you’re crazy when you do stuff like this. It’s understandable. Anything could happen. Bad things can happen.

But good things can happen too. I can succeed too.

And that’s what I am going to do. Succeed.

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My brilliant idea

Brilliant Light BulbI had this brilliant idea. I was going to start this blog, relaunch another blog, contributing posts to both at least once a week. I was going to build not one, but two websites in WordPress (the WordPress.org version), a platform I am still learning so much about.

And I was going to get all of this up and running in about a month.Ha.Ha.Ha.

So far, I am trying to learn as much as I can about building custom websites on WordPress, but neither website is complete.

For this blog, I have only posted three times in a little over a month, and I am nowhere near relaunching the other blog.

It’s not that I don’t want to do any of these things. I do. I planned on getting up at 4:30 in the morning to give myself time to work on these things. But the 4:30 thing does not always happen. In fact, lately 4:30 isn’t happening much at all.

Here are my reasons, and or excuses, for not being farther along:

  • I have a three year old.
  • I’m working my “day job” in the office and from home about 20 -30 hours a week.
  • We are dealing with a serious family illness right now.

Now for anyone who has or has had small children in their lives, I don’t have to say much about how much fun they are when they are little. But I had no idea, before I became a mother, just how tired I would be at the end of the day.

I still work at the job, so I will refrain from saying much about it, except to say that it sometimes provides me with some stressful last-minute deadlines to deal with.

My father is the one with the serious illness. I am always worried. I worry about him,and I worry about my mother (who is taking care of him). I grind my teeth, I lose sleep.

So a month ago when I was on fire and I thought I could get all of these things done in a month, I was obviously being naive, fooling myself.

But that is okay. I’m not giving up on my plan. I will post on this blog, I will build my websites and I will restart the other blog, but I’m not going to put any unrealistic expectations on myself.

It’s just going to take longer than a month.